It seems that the decade just went by, but is it so? A decade means 10 years and 10 years is a long span. When I look back, I realize that I have indeed changed, not a lot, but quite a bit.
In 2010, there I was handling 2 small kids, trying to balance it with my work from home profile. I believe I took parenting a bit too seriously back then, as it was in the back of my mind that I was responsible for shaping my children as individuals. I was too worked up with everything.
Last decade I had started writing again. I remember I used to write as a kid but with time and responsibilities writing had taken a backseat. Writing simply started with me sharing my parenting stories and experiences in various platforms. Soon, I began to blog about it more seriously. Yes..I could have been more aggressive and marketed myself better but for me blogging is more of sharing my experiences than gaining any kind of stardom or winning awards.
Also, the last decade taught me how people can be fake and selfish. There are many women/writers who claimed to be my friends or wanted my help and once they were done with it they wouldn’t even bother to acknowledge or keep in touch. I have now become more wary of term “friendship” and “sisterhood” as I have seen these terms being used very loosely.
Present day, I am a 40 plus woman who is much calmer, much wiser, a little less accepting. I have stopped trying to fit in. I am happier with my family, my genuine friends and appreciators. My son is now on the verge of adulthood and my daughter on the verge of being a teenager. I have raised them well and that gives me immense satisfaction. The last 10 years took a lot of hard work in raising them, shaping them and I today I can relax now that they are good individuals.
We learn with experience, with time, and sometimes we women are too hard on ourselves. The decade that went by taught me to be more accepting of myself and forgive myself for the mistakes that I did, unknowingly.
So, I tell myself and every other woman out there. “Forgive yourself for what you didn’t know”.
“This post is a part of ‘DECADE Blog Hop’ #DecadeHop organized by #RRxMM Rashi Roy and Manas Mukul. The Event is sponsored by Glo and co-sponsored by Beyond The Box, Wedding Clap, The Colaba Store and Sanity Daily in association with authors Piyusha Vir and Richa S Mukherjee”