Human nature is complicated. The more it gets, the more it wants! God has been very kind to me (touchwood). I was born to wonderful parents who gave me all the love and affection, grew up with my 2 adorable siblings. Materialistically we didn’t have much but our parents never deprived us and we were happy in whatever we got.
Now I have a family of mine; an adorable husband and 2 loving kids. With so many unhappy marriages and relationships around, I would say I am blessed to be in a stable and happy relationship.
But still as humans…my greed overpowers my happiness at times. On visiting social networking sites or listening about others, I subconsciously start comparing my life with them. The reason of jealousy is always related to something materialistic. I know many a times the pressure hurts my husband both financially and emotionally; I am guilty. There are days when I am overwhelmed managing two kids who are growing up and showing but emotional and physical changes. I yell at them; I am guilty. There are days when I am upset with my parents; I am guilty.
But those warm bear hugs from children and husband, one warm conversation with my parents and I am again given the reality check of what valuable assets I possess.
I know I am as human as anyone else but still the guilt of comparison hurts. Learning each day to be a better person; I apologize to all whom I have hurt..